I've had a whoa-everyone-is-so-frickin-cool-and-talented-and-what-am-I-doing-with-myself kind of week. I finished Cherubs a full week ago. I did more in ONE HOUR of Cherubs than I have done this whole week. I give myself a bit of break, cause I know that I needed the time to decompress, but at the same time I wish I was doing something awesome and productive and creative. I keep looking at people I know and people that I idolize in the biz and I am just like, why am I here? These people exist.
During Cherubs, I was doing things and other people were doing things and we were all doing awesome things. I felt confident in my abilities cause everyone was at such a high level of awesome and I was up there with them. But after, the entire world is out there (or in my computer) and all I can seem to do is witness it.
I've been doing this free-write morning thing for the past three days. You basically just write three pages when you wake up without stopping and just let whatever happens, happen. It's been nice. I end up using it as a diary of sorts. I'm hoping to make it a habit so that I can start writing some quality shit.
Also here I am! I haven't written since June 9th. What a summer. This is my angsty teen post. Hopefully if I can pull myself together, I will write something about the craziness that was my Cherubs experience. In the meantime, enjoy this mix. A friend from Cherubs posted it on another friend's facebook. Exactly a week ago, we were all on our way home after staying up all night and watching the gorgeous lake sunrise together. This mix is called Watch the Sunrise. So, enjoy. But take it with a grain of salt, cause I haven't even listened to it all the way through. I like what I've heard so far though.
I'm at the point where I no longer know what I am talking about so I will sign out for now. Wish me luck sparking my muse!